II have these major power...my mind...which containes massive potential...yet i can't control it.

I have these special conversation with my mind on how it picks up things.

I was able to master my mind by going through certain events, as I've said before to myself, 
the solution is so far-fetched that I couldn't have predicted it but I was lead thorugh it.

I didn't like getting attracted because of influence or because of someone's status, or probably I just don't believe in status thinking that
we are al equal, we're all just human, cliches aside.  
But other reasons probably because of my pride, and I knew how people think, it's because I was there already, both positions, the admired and the admirer, the geek and the icon.  I knew how I hated being admired because of my status, it's like somebody liking you for your wealth, and it doesn't feel good at all, I got pride.  

There were times I wanted to take advantage of my status but there was just so much pride that I felt I was too precious to be of someone else's.  Trust me, I didn't like the way I thought too, or probably I didn't like my knwoledge of how things are.  Well these statementr actually has a bigger story involved, about having a dual mind. 

I was right...I did have the right to fear...I thougth I was just making things up to prove that I am truly capable of things.
I did stop myself a lot, and thinking about it I did the right thing, coz that's the only sfae way I knew how to deal with my potential.